No Place To Hide by Ivy

It’s effecting us now
here
everyday
the pieces are too big even for butterflies
it happens one sentence at a time
trying to hold us in place
there’s no place to hide
I run without looking at color
but feel it scratch me on the back
I live in see through boxes putting quarters in the slots
I melt with my tongue
while stealing money like a stranger
it’s happening all over
not just here
not just now
the vomit sticks in my stomach
rah is another word for I’m better
stars get in my way
no one believes a smile
no one hears the out of tune plucking
no one gets through the busy line
the trains stop running
airspace is blocked
it’s important to take the stairs
but my mouth is pooling with saliva
there’s no place to hide
waving stripes hurts my brain
people falling hurts my eyes
indulging in love is the best way to hurt the other guy someone cut down the trees 
so now the sun spills heat across my couch
cushions bounce onto the floor 
with a shove of my dogs nose
there are windows everywhere I look
I try to find places to hide
at night the moon reflects off the palms 
with its silver glow bouncing light from my bed
there’s no place to go
in the mornings yellow bounces between the greens
it’s happening here
now
still
light plays tricks between the setting trees
I can feel it
the alright comes between the drops of rain 
but still there’s no place to hide
I hear the buzzing from the bees
they must be real high
it’s gonna be alright
he promises me that
there’s no hiding when the winds blows the covers away It’s gonna be alright
the hum of the motorcycle tells me he’s home
I should get up and make lunch
but I was thinking about peace and my dad 
and how none of it rearranges my sentences
I need to tell him I can’t find a place to hide 
because the carpets have all been picked out of sight there’s a bruise on my leg that I can trace in the day 
but it’s the ones in my dreams that leave me behind
it’s happening here
now
I can hear them fighting behind the walls
the gate clicks so I can see him now
I can ask him where to hide
my sentences are falling apart
words pour out too close together
I smell salt and cilantro while he chops us up a meal
he frowns when he cooks but the feeling is mine
he tells me everything will be alright 
and I say but please 
show me where to hide