So I'll tell you the truth about caves. Or, I guess some of the truth about caves,or some truths about caves,or at least some versions of possible truths about caves that may or may not be true, by my perception, at this time, which will probably change as soon as I write it.
The entry way is all guarded and covered by the white arms/legs/roots of maybe Kukui nut trees, bald and blonde and wrinkled elephant skin. We talked about elephants on the way, how he felt like an elephant roaming through this tall, wild, untamed grass, and how I felt like a mouse, tiny in this overarching, protective tunnel/world/maze of grass, exploring. How Ganesh, remover of obstacles, has a cohort, a tiny mouse, whose purpose is to crawl into tight spaces, like maybe a keyhole, and unlock it from the other side.
Well, let me tell you, I feel the power of the cosmic elephant mouse connection now, and especially with him. In his expansive state,creator of the universe, rainbow electric, vibrating laser show of a man, with the ideas and the passion and the physicality to carry it through. And ever reaching outward, inward, beyond, loving, through. Andi, in my inward spiral, moving into the tiny creases of my imagination, between rocks, who is hiding? In the thick of moss, in the ridges of tree bark, what are they speaking? I hear their whispers. Soften, loosen, flow, accept, become, be still, be ever watchful, blend in, stand tall, listen, play.
And inside the cave. Entering the lock with no key, allowed to pass through this threshold. Silence. It is dark and my damn thoughts keep swirling,worrying, landing on physical discomforts. He hits the jackpot with a grace of the big small. The big small. He is the only other person I've ever met to have experienced the big small, and let me tell you, it's my favorite thing and I'm always trying to explain it. It's like my whole head and/or body swells to fill the room, the world, the universe, everything. And then there is a microscopic me, a tiny me, aware,in the center, walking around in myself. Elephant and mouse.
Well, like I said, this day I felt jumbled, not so expansive, but when I lined up my spine I did feel a huge well open in my chest like a great black balloon, cool but if felt good. Between us, I wonder if it was a receiving of his love, or perhaps I was becoming the cave. And, like last time, this is weird dunno what it means but, in this one spot feels like there is a portal or tunnel up and out. Or something is there. A life force, an entryway to another realm? A trees roots? Buried treasure.