I felt so deeply sad. We have been friends for almost 40 years . She was my sons babysitter when they were still in diapers and when she saw my husband and my record collection she realized we would be better friends than her being our sitter. She was in college. I was just turning 30.
We went out dancing a lot and she introduced me to a family of friends I've loved ever since.
We both survived breast cancer. We both love music and nature. Most of all I love her laugh. She has this laugh that even if something isn't funny it is once you hear Susan laugh.
I told her my deepest secrets and fears. We encouraged each other to eat well,
to make new friends. Knowing her made me a better person.
I prayed for her dad during his passing and sent him a few cards and called him . I went to her house after my dads death Too shaken to go directly home to Hawaii.
She's a fabulous dancer and musician. Everyone who knows her admires her.
We discussed our jobs as we are both in the "helping professions."
She gave me amazing counsel during my codependent crazy times and she still does give me wisdom to any situation I find difficult.
I've been feeling her pulling away a bit from me gently, compassionately, but I didn't want to believe it. So I guess I confronted this intuition by asking her if I can stay with her when I visit Pa. this summer.
I'm glad its out. I'm so grateful we spoke. I'm blessed we are still friends just in a different way. I pray I can accept this without beating myself up or judging myself. For it is true things do just change sometimes. I feel lucky to know someone so honest and caring as to tell me about this change