Well maybe it's really a question for me.
If you died right now what would people say about you?
What would they say about me?
Would it be what you wanted them to say? Would they talk about your spirit, tender or mean? Are you selfish or generous with your resources, your time. your heart? Would they say they loved or hated you?
Am I hated?
Would they feel pride or pity or do they feel both at the same time? Would it be what you wanted them to say about you?
What I wanted them to say?
Would it be true to who you really are? Do allow yourself to be seen?
Am I seen?
Do you trust? Are you trusted? Who turns to you in a moment of need, of loneliness, of desperation, of shame? Who do you turn to?
Who do I turn to?
Is it one person in particular or two or three? What's more important to you career or home? What's your priority? Is it your family, or your job or your friends or yourself? Do they know it? Can they count on you?
If you died right now what regrets would you leave behind?
I have some you know?
What messes? Who would know? Who would care? Does anyone care? Have you been your best self?
If you died right now what would people say? Would they be surprised or think you had it coming?
Do I have it coming?
Do you smell the guava in the air and watch the clouds pass by? Does the sun's reflection show you different shades of green and yellow or does your world only show you different shades of blue? Does your dog's face or baby's cry bring explosions of joy or does your stomach twist in guilt and shame?
If you die right now what would people say about you? What would they say about me?
A life well lived, well loved, well cared for? Do you make people smile and laugh and wanna hug you or do you push people away?
Do I push people away?
Would it be what you wanted them to say?
What I wanted them to say,
if we died right now?