Backed up again, come on, I don’t need to put myself here in the corner.
The sun is shining, and birds are singing out the window, but here I sit in the corner in the morning, on the hard wood floor, my back against the bed.
It holds me up and pushes me down at the same time.
I face the window, symbolic of my escape.
Soft white curtains tied back to let in the sunlight of the morning in, and let me out.
Just a low porch roof to jump down from and I would be free.
All my life the open window has been the medefor of my escape plan.
Signifying the positive and optimistic aspects of life, the portal to the other side of what reality is in the present moment.
It signifies the ability to have control of my own destiny, if I want to.
I am one of the fortunate people on the planet to have a window and a window that opens none the less.
Some people don’t even have a window in their worlds, no light to shine any hope for them at all.
Other people have many windows but have them all boarded up.
I know someone like that who is very close to me.
He is hanging from the ledge of his boarded up window, not trying to get in our out, but just trying not to fall off the ledge.
My window is wide open with breezes from time to time, and lots of light and heat. The heat gets unbearable sometimes.
I moan and complain how hot it is, but I wait it out.
You know what, if I cant fit through the opening that leads to the other side of the window, I can always just walk out the door.
I can get in the car, and drive anywhere I want to.
I can get on a plane and go far far away if i wanted.
If I chose to just make the plunge out this window, it would not be to my death, I know that, but it could change everything.
Could be a good thing, It would be to an open road, an open meadow, and open opportunity to explore, and venture out.
All the avenues are open to me right now, but I am still too afraid to venture.
Scared to make a choice out of all the choices in the world.
I am stuck in my own patterns of being stuck. I know I deserve it, or do I feel like I don’t deserve it.
So I sit here in the corner looking out the window. Great view….