Golden droplets wasted on a dark pit where the inhabitants pop pills that make them pass their time in numbness and unfathomable stretches of sleep.
Medical officers with grim faces dishing out meds as though this were a psyche ward.
I'm one of five that refrains from the cop out.
I choose to be alert.
To stay awake until the late evenings darkness summons my dreams to feel the plethora of deep emotion swelling in my fractured heart.
To remain present for hells heat as it melts away smiles of freedom and joy.
Although pain and grief tear the lids from my tearful eyes
I remain committed to finding the way back to her pure soft smile and her shiny deep eyes that sing promises for tomorrow's bright future.
I believe in it.
I believe in us.
I believe in the glorious victory that shines through the tiny crack in the wall of my hope.
I'm reaching for it with my whole being.
Every part of me.
Every part of you beloveds.
Every part of us reaching for this glimmer of hope that tears down illusion and despair and brutality.
They say I was born for this.
Yet I struggle to find my breathe in this puddle of aching pus.
What do they know anyway?
None of them have ever visited hell.
And I'm glad.
I wouldn't want them to suffer like this.
I'd rather take the burn for them while I pray for mercy.
I pray that I may endure this heat and become torched into crystallized glass diamonds for all to enjoy.
For now though please cradle me in the loving safety of your womb beloveds.
Hold me close and whisper inspiring words of hope and faith into my tender ears.
Let me know you're there or I might forget as there are monsters here who steal ones power.
I'll keep my shields up and I trust you'll have back beloveds.
Allow me to inhabit yours hands as you stoke my babies cheek and tell her how much I love and miss her.
Let me be your poised lips as you kiss my family and each other.
I miss you too beloveds.
I want to be alive in your body as you relish in life's blessings.
Take me swimming hiking and dancing.
There you will behold my beauty and smile.
I love you beloveds.
I am connected to the eternal blazing flame that binds us together and fuels our fire as we use our collective power to birth this miracle that will reunite us.
We are a force that will rise up in victory.
I believe in us beloveds.