Drain my veins of all this pain,
Of all this longing and starving and reaching.
Pull my bones from my body and let me crumple to the ground, Let me fall in a heap,
Let me melt and shrivel and rot.
Let the flies lay their eggs in my crevices.
Let the maggots feed on my surrender.
Pull my head out my ass and turn me inside out,
Then scrub me spotless.
Turn me upside down and dump me out.
Dump out my keys and my spare change and my lip gloss.
Dump out my hamster wheel and my timepiece and my calendar.
Shake me and shake me until who I think I am slides out of my skin.
And then throw my empty shell into the fire.
Take me apart,
Piece by piece,
And throw away everything that's not true, not real, not pure,
All the lies and the shame and the pretty and the smart and the sexy and the shiny and...
Dig it all out,
Throw it all away,
Or feed it to the dragon,
Or burn it in your pyre.
Just empty me
Free me from my chains and whips and chocolate covered sweet tooth.
Unshackle me from my desires and my assumptions and my ego.
I don't know what will be left when you're done, if anything.
I don't even know if I want there to be anything left.
I don't know
Maybe I will die and be free or
Maybe I will live and be free.
I don't know
Just do your work
I am ready