It comes out when you are in pain.
It comes out when your reaction overwhelms the moment. It comes out when I can't think or see clearly
cracking me open and dissected organ by organ
exposing my corruption
revealing my darkness.
Outside is the place of rainbows and belief
of quenched thirst and ripe fruits.
Where sacred hula brings tears to your eyes and love rides the trades and ambition surfs the waves
but at what cost?
This place has blessed me with ever changing land
with clouds that part and rejoin
with moonbows revealed
with deep holes I've plunged into
and rocks I have climbed
but still I seek solitude.
As the fire in me burns transforming my everyday
I evolve into someone new
opening me to see in a different light
through shadow forms take shape.
What I can't see is what it all means?
I only know how it feels in me
in the waters that fill my body with life
in my coldness in my pain
and in my reactions.