I'll stand up for our family, with all our flaws,
warts, and missing teeth.
I can be the one now to hold us together.
I can do it.
I can forgive everyone, every one of us.
I can forgive the insanity; the feeling that everyone is against each other.
I can forgive our shortcomings; texts unanswered,
gifts that were never sent, calls that were never given, or taken, or even thought of in the first place.
If we are sick, I'll have compassion.
If we are manipulating, I'll give it up.
If we are lying, I'll take it as a joke.
What matters is we are family.
I'll love our kids, grandkids, sisters, nieces, and all the boys too.
I can be the one.
I will be the one.
I'll hold us when we're sad.
I'll remind us of all what's important
Our family is what's important.
I know I can hide my feelings.
I know I want my pain to be my own, not shared, understood ,or qualified.
But I will mix up all of our pain, and spread it over the land, and grow new dreams from it.
There's so much fun to be had; smiles, hot tubs, water guns, gummy bears, wet doggy noses, pouncing kitty’s, and making love in the afternoon. Holding hands at night, smiling over coffee, over dinner, over the phone, over all.
I'll remind us of the birthdays, holidays, picnics in the park, and weddings, and graduations, and barbecues on the beach, and people who moved or came back, or died or got a haircut.
I'll remind us; of petsitting, of babysitting, of hospital sitting, of sitting by the crib, by the wall, by the bed, sharing cocktails, sharing time, sharing secrets, fears, hopes, wishes, anxiety, priorities, misgivings, humor, wisdom, smiles.
I will do this.
I will show up for us.
I will show up for all of us; for uncles, and nephews,
and sons, and fathers, and all the girls too.
We will visit each other. I mean it. I mean it. I mean it.
Go to each other's home and feel the skins of each other's lives.
We are family.
We are bi polar, Christian, depressed, Greek, menopausal, Puerto Rican, spiritual, Cuban, husky, Guatemalan, white, slim, Jewish, black.
I will do this.