Sometimes, when I'm nursing, I remember to consciously give her my chi, using the taoist micro-cosmic orbit exercise I've been practicing. I squeeze my perineum as i inhale my chi from my ovaries up my spine to my crown. Then I exhale my chi down my front, into my breasts and my milk. Often, when I would do this, my milk would let down and flood into her mouth. Sometimes, it would be too much and she would let go, the milk gushing out and spraying her in the face. I would laugh and help her to latch on again, wiping the milk from her cheeks and eyes.
I love nursing my baby. I am feeding her, not just milk and calories. I am feeding her my love, my attention, my time, my presence. I am feeding her intention, possibility, hope. I am feeding her a future.